I Stand Alone

Losing it! Losing control of my life. Why does this happen? It happens because I can't remain silent. I lost my best friend of 26-years yesterday. One would think a tragic death, cancer, something unstoppable. No, I lost her voluntarily. I stood my ground and wrote down the words I would never write in my life,"Don't ever call me or text me again!" I delved into my Face book and automatically deleted any trace of our sisterhood. In a blink of an eye she was gone. Did I overstep my boundaries by trying to keep her from crashing into a wall? Probably. Did I do the right thing? Probably not. I don't think it has hit me,yet. I haven't cried. Not one single tear. Instead I'm angry because about twenty-two years ago I saw her make the same mistake and I said nothing. Now I finally said to her, "Don't go down that road. I have been down that road and it destroyed my life." Who am I to say anything? No one. I will fix my mistake or my attempt at a heroic rescue, but we will never speak again. The power cord was disconnected. My heart is cold. I have let go. I have let go so many times before. I stand alone again.