Monday, January 20, 2014

Three Branches

There is a tree in the fields of Arizona close to my home that stands out from the agricultural fields. Even at their bloom, the wheat fields don't cover this tree.  I have stared at this tree many an hour from my outside porch. What kind of tree? I haven't a clue in the world for as much as I know about a tree is that it absorbs water from its roots to grow and bloom.  If you look at that particular tree over the sunset you can see that it consists of three branches. One larger branch that grows many leaves. One thinner branch to the South that grows leaves when it wants and a strong branch to the North that never changes. It never grows leaves; it never moves.

The largest branch is directly feeding off the stalk of the tree. It grows beautiful leaves and it sways in the winds of Spring. It's a strong branch though somewhat crooked in several areas. The second branch has some Springs when it sways its beautiful leaves in the wind, glistening in the sun. Other years, approaching fall, you see no branches. It just stays still.  The little branch to the North is very peculiar for it grows but it never grows leaves nor does it have any curvatures, just straight.  It's strong, no doubt. Just growing straight out.

One day I decided to take a closer inspection of this awkward looking tree. I approached and I could feel some of the roots under my feet. The roots must run deep if they are already sprouting out of the ground,  I assumed.  I got to the tree and one could see that the bark had seen its years of hardship. There were patches of bark missing. There were saw marks in some areas of the tree as if someone had tried to cut it down. Yet, it stood there holding those three branches, steadfastly.

From the little that I know about trees, I assume that if one branch is broken off, the rest of the tree can still thrive.  As such I assumed about this tree that I had seen yonder for so long. One day, as I did every once in a while, I woke up at sunrise to say good morning to the day and that steadfast tree. I sat at my porch bench, took a sip of my coffee and rose my head to see the tree against the sunrise. I dropped my coffee cup as it shattered on the floor. One, two... One, two... One, two!!!!!! I ran to the tree and found that the unpredictable branch was gone. It was not sawed off; it had been broken off and it had been taken. I was saddened for the tree now held two branches but surely it would thrive. I went back and cleaned the mess I had left behind. I surprised myself as I wiped a tear from my cheek.

A few days later, from afar, I noticed no leaves on that bigger branch. Why? It was Spring. I approached and looked at the other smaller branch and it was starting to dry and slant. I inspected the bark and there was a sap-like substance coming from its old wounds. A month later I went back to that same tree. The branches were brittle to touch and the bark, the strong tree, dead.

God gave me three branches such as those I have described.  He gave me a love for them that I can never describe. Nothing could substitute their love and vibrancy though they are all different.  I am the tree stalk. I live for them bringing them the water they need to grow. God spare me the day that this old tree would have to be without one of its beautiful branches. God spare me...

Friday, January 17, 2014

You are There


When I was at my lowest, you raised  me up. When I was lost you showed me the light. When I was hungry, you fed me. When I needed warmth in my heart, you sent the holy spirit. When I was lonely, you sent my beloved daughter. You always carry me, especially in my toughest times. That is why I knock at your door today and say, "It is me Lord, your faithful servant. I need uplifting of my soul as I am walking on a mountain so high. I am tired." The Lord speaks, "My Dearest Dearest daughter, I know you may not see it now, but you will make it past this mountain and you will drink from the river of life because you are one of my jewels. Do not look back for you have tread a long way. Keep moving forward."

Sunday, January 12, 2014

My Dearest Friend


My Dearest Friend,
I am saddened by your state of mind, by the turmoil in your life and the pain in your heart. I know you are angered for where has the time gone. That innocent young mind full of hopes and dreams is now slapped in the face by the reality of life. Did you believe life would be heavenly bliss? I knew not, for my thoughts were plagued with sadness at the age of five. Only to explain my state of mind at five-years-old, I was sitting on a step crying over the atomic bomb and how many people it would kill. Does a child think this way? A child who will grow up to self-implode, yes. However, let us not stray from the issue at hand. I want you to know that life is unpredictable. One minute you are here and the next you are there. That is the way life works, forever changing. If you resist the change, you will only anguish that much more. My friend, allow yourself to cocoon so that from that shell will emerge a majestic butterfly.  That butterfly will fly free, able to land on fields of flowers. What you feel today, if you let it go, will be forgotten tomorrow.  I promise.
With Love,
Your friend

Changeling....

People change like seasons change. Once that transformation occurs, although they physically appear the same, they are not. They are strained by the wind, the sun, the snow, the sleet. Life smooths the edges, create ridges, whithers at a person, creates a new creature. Homeostasis is impossible because two things are certain in this life, change and the fallen tree. So when I am old and frail I will still be me outside but I will have gone full circle many times. I will have become a million me in my heart and in my soul. For every thought and every feeling changes what once was.

Monday, January 6, 2014

The Best a friend could be....

To lose your only friend in life
How mystifying that is to me
To lose your only one true friend
What a devastating tragedy
The friend you knew in pony tails
Who played Red Roses with you
The friend that dressed as a nun
While you dressed like a clown
We stood at Hallmark for hours
Laughing until our tummies hurt
In our youth we danced til dawn
Enjoying every minute together
We were hungry one day in June
We cooked a burnt pizza that day
Funny days, fun days, sad days
We shared them all the same
When she was to be married
I did not go to her wedding
I regret making that choice
But I just couldn't give her away
For a long time we didn't speak
You see I was broken hearted
For I didn't know how to share her
She was my older sister in life
Then suddenly I was by myself
Soon enough we spoke again
Oh how I missed her near me
She traveled the world, had babies
I went to University and grew up
Not one day in all that time
Was there a day that I didn't miss
The jokes, the tricks, the games
Spending 365 days a year together
Now we are half past twelve
I have been through hell and back
Now the game is half way over
She has lived a quiet peaceful life
We are different as black on white
Yet no matter how much time
When we are together we are
Six again, 15 again, young again
We laugh, we cry, we reminisce
This life-long friendship of ours

                           -Susana Zaragoza